Poem: I Can't Explain

I Can't Explain

this disdain I feel,
but I feel it and do not think it will change.
Maybe it will shift.  It could happen
that it shifts a bit,
but for now: no, 
I do not think so.
It does not matter,
you will tell me
it is this way
and I should accept it
and I have done
what was needed,
have accepted that.
I am just not glad
to have done it,
and I am afraid
it is not over,
that it will be more
and worse.  I do not like it.
I want it to be better
but this way is all that can be.

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