Poem: Why She Will Leave If I Cry

Why She Will Leave If I Cry

It had to be held back.  It would
have been too much,
it would have been
self-destruction, explosion,
uncontrolled, uncontrollable.
Someone had to hold it
all together, it was
a responsibility.  Letting
out that pain was not
a real option.
No, it was too strong, had
to be pushed inside, suppressed
deep inside, not to be
let out.  But now, to see
any emotion in others,
it is too much, brings
too much awareness
of what has not been
dealt with.  Inside,
it has built a pressure
that must not be released.
To admit that, though,
to admit the reason
for not looking
in the eyes of those
who cry, it would
be too hard.   Instead,
it is admonition, only
this way is right: do not
express what is there,
push it inside.  Any
other response
is wrong.  Why
should anyone
express their pain?
It is too selfish
of them; for that
they deserve only scorn,

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