A Writer's Notebook, Day Three-Hundred-And-Nineteen

Some days it is harder than others to do my work.  On these days, I often just feel drained.  Right now, for example, I have a minor headache and just wish I could be in bed already. However, I did my writing, because it is a commitment that I have to myself, and to my work.  In the end, that dedication is the thing that I have to give, or at least the thing that I am most in control of. 

Of course, committing to doing so much writing brings rewards.  First, the work itself.  Producing so many pieces at the moment is an incredible reward on it's own.  That is enhanced by the second boon, which is seeing the work change and develop with this continued effort.  It is impossible to do so much work and not see an improvement, or at least it is so for me, and I tend to think anyone would get better at a thing that they did so much.  Third, their is the outer rewards, which are slow to come but are starting to trickle in now.   Initially, I was offered a reading at a local bookstore, and now a journal here in Florida is publishing one of my poems next month.  It is a beginning, and that is exciting to see.

So, I am keeping focused on the fact that the work is beginning to find it's way into the world, slowly.  I am continuing, as well, to post poems here, and I expect to continue doing that for the foreseeable future, though it could change for a lot of different reasons.  Right now, though, I am feeling that I am a bit low on energy.  Still, I am doing good work even now, and that is something that I won't forget.  Even if the work were bad,. I would still be glad to get it done, to know I was sticking to this commitment.

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