Would That I Might

I continued work on that short story and feel that it is starting to have a real shape.  It is still hiding a great deal, but it seems to be playing with that in an interesting way.  The center of the story is about the character dealing with the fallout from something, and their is an assumption that the reader already knows that context, but the focus is not actually on what happened in specific, it is off in another direction, with the unwillingness of the character to be direct about what happened being a central focus of the story itself.  I feel very much that I am discovering this story as it continues, though I have a sense of the ending, and feel it may be rather grim, but I am having a great deal of fun writing it and am excited to see where it ends up going, with new ideas coming to me that I am eager to begin working on tomorrow.  I hope it will work when I am done, and that it might be a story that is also relevant.  It is not clear to me how it is ...

More Might Be Missing It was later, when he left the house that they asked if he noticed the couch and chairs were gone, and he did not notice, was not certain at all, but why bother looking? He went off, did nothing, mentioned it to others who would not look either, because it was agreed, in unspoken agreement, it was best to be uncertain.

I was able to get myself to work at an earlier hour today and even finished my first session of poems rather early.  As well, I was able to get myself to work on some fiction, though I am not yet certain about the story I am writing.  I have a strong sense of most everything about it but the plot, which is somewhat perplexing, but I think the beginning that I worked on today is leading in a good direction.  In some ways, it may be that not knowing the specifics I am thinking of is part of the game of this story, but I am not certain yet.  I am still just following the impulse that began it, and I am rather pleased at this point.  I'm going to work on it again tomorrow, of course, and hope it will begin to move in a direction with a bit more shape to it.  In any case, I feel glad to be moving forward with my work in the ways that I can.  I am still rather frustrated with the difficulties I am having getting work out there, and I am not certain what to d...

Making It, I Did Not Know I just began to do it, picked up this or that to put together in ways that fit or seemed the ways that should be  for whatever it was, but there was no sense of what it was becoming, if that had been clear... but it was not, I did not see what was coming together, was just making a thing, with no intent, not at all, anything else is an accident and no one can blame me, no, it was never anything that had meaning, I just made it, how can it be my fault when I was just making it and did not think of that or consider it at all?

I want to begin work on some short stories this week.  I am still considering my next novel, but I have a few story ideas that have cropped up and I feel they are worth pursuing.  In order to do that, I need to alter my writing habits to get work done earlier, and am pursuing that, but it is hard   A lot of the time I am still not getting enough done during the day, am leaving most of the work until the evening, which is a a bad habit that perpetuates itself by keeping me awake late.  I need to alter my habits, but it may be that the best way is to make the commitment to start work tomorrow on some fiction.  I have the start of a story in my head that I think will be fun and fast to write, so I am going to start it tomorrow, no matter what my writing is going like otherwise.  The worst that happens, I am stuck awake way too late yet again.

Rules Well, yes, we do need rules, need them to make certain that things are done or not done depending on what is best, and many would never know what is right or wrong, could not decide at all, would be lost without rules, how could they operate if it were not said to act this way is proper, to do those things is forbidden.  It is important to have rules, for those people it is important, but we are better than that, we know what to do, are strong enough to make choices for ourselves, even the rules we make are always for others to follow.

I feel that I am making some progress in my work, and am working on some new projects that I find exciting, including getting a new chapbook prepared to send out, and sending out a few short stories.  I've grown accustomed to the work being rejected, but I am hoping that my fiction will find a positive reception.  I feel that my fiction is, in a way, more unique than my poetry, though that does not express what I mean.  I think it is more that my work in fiction has different interests and parameters than most contemporary work.  In poetry, there is a greater freedom, and so the work tends to be wilder, or at least one can find that work, while fiction is often more restrained.  This can be a function of the industry as much as of the work being produced, of course, but I am hoping that the work I am doing has non-traditional qualities that are appealing to editors.  Of course, it is also possible, indeed it is likely, that the work will be rejected out of ...