Would That I Might

I do not have a reason for having taking such a long absence from this blog.  To be honest, I am not certain anyone noticed, but if you did, I am here and am hoping to make a return to form.  I don't really have any reason that I stopped.  It was just falling out of the habit, which is a thing I have expressed fear about before.  I did not stop writing.  I wrote at least one new poem (almost) every day, even if I wasn't writing here.  In part, I think it was just a release, maybe, and I know it connects to the publication of Blaze without Burning , to the sense that I am in progress and moving into a new phase in my career.  I suppose I feel a bit less pressed to keep the foot on the accelerator, maybe.  I've written a lot of poems, and part of the reason is connected to that desire to get the work out into the world, and now that I am starting to feel that happening in a significant way, I suppose I am slowing down a little, am focusing on things...

Not that poem, this one instead I know, I could write that, but you expect it, I guess, or I expect it, maybe is what I mean.  I mean I thought of it and it is an idea I would have, I did have, but this is something else, I think, is not what I expected from myself, is what I did when I said "no" to what I expected. It may have been a bad idea, considering it, but it was worth  taking that risk.