Poem: It was no good

It was no good

and I do understand
your response,
but it was not
a good thing,
was not right,
was a thing I did
that hurt, that I did
to hurt myself,
in a way, to indulge
pleasures that
would harm me,
that I knew
were wrong
and would leave me
wounded.  I know
it is not an excuse,
but maybe
I needed
sympathy
and not
judgement.
Maybe that
is the only thing
I wanted
in response,
though
you could
not have been
aware, did not
know the truth.
I hid it.  It was
shameful
so I hid it.

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