Poem: I do not want to feel

I do not want to feel

like I am the one
who is failing
and you are the one
trying to make 
it right, I know
that is not true,
it is only
that you are fine
with surfaces
and I need
what is beneath:
you can pretend
it is all perfect
and blame me
when it is no good.
You think
the parameters
are yours to set,
but that is no good.
You must become
a person
who can care
enough about others
to do things
that are not
comfortable for you.

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