A Writer's Notebook, Day Three-Hundred-And-Twenty-Three

While I am not yet out of my creative "funk" or whatever it is, I did feel good about work I accomplished today.  Some of the work seems to me to be pretty strong, and I did feel that at least one piece was close to the kind of work I've been craving to get back to.  So, it seems that things are continuing in the right direction.

It is rather ridiculous, as I am sure I have said, to be calling it a funk or anything, even when my work continues at the same pace, but I do feel that way.  On some level, internally, I genuinely feel that I am lacking some creative spark, that my efforts of late have been largely imitations of the real work.  That is a ridiculous thing, especially considering that it can be even more work to write when feeling less inspired, and because the output has remained at a similar level, and is consistent with other work in additional ways not worth specifying right now.  The point is, I could probably line up poems and even I might not know which one's are the newest and borne of this current mental state.  

So, the work is getting done, and I still feel that it is good, but somehow my mind is still focusing on the feeling of not being on my game.  I suppose that it may be, in part, a good thing, that is partly keeping me from stagnating, or from otherwise falling into a creative complacency. While I want to get back to a more comfortable place in relationship to my creativity and writing, I also want to recognize that their is value in having this kind of internal conflict, and that it does help create the right mental attitude for keeping the work fresh, even if not always easy or pleasant.

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