A Writer's Notebook, Day One-Hundred-And-Eighty-Four

So, first, I missed marking that I have apparently been writing this journal for a full half year already.  That seems unreal to me, honestly.  It does not seem like anywhere near that amount of time that I've been at this, really.  Strange how we perceive time...

I am going to keep this short again, I think, as I don't have much to report at the moment.  I wrote a new poem, which I think is good but, again, in need of work.  I am still trying to make contact with that woman I mentioned.  I called again but am waiting for a response.  I feel somewhat on edge right now, not only because of quitting cigarettes, but also as a result of recognizing some of the issues I have and ways in which they are still very present in my life.  I often don't recognize this, but lately some experiences have made me consider it  more closely. 

It scares me that I can easily make small errors that are purely a result of my dyslexia, but which others will take in a different way.  For example, it is easy for me to make silly mistakes in writing an email, or typing a memo, or anything of that sort.  Sending out something without a subject, for example, even after twenty or thirty minutes of editing and attempting to check every detail.  In such a case, it can be a huge issue, as I may not get the email to the person without the subject, but I also cannot send it again without it being a larger issue.  In part that is also my own neurotic thinking, I am sure...

Anyhow, I am doing a lot of thinking about this stuff lately...

Also, I had some thoughts for my second novel about how to improve some of it.  I encountered a few ideas about computing that I think might let me make the book feel a bit more grounded in some ways, but it will take a bit of digging to find how that will work.  I feel pretty good about it, though, as a concept.  I am not yet ready to tackle that revision yet, as I am still keeping the focus on agenting that first book.  I think, in part, I don't really want that second book to be my debut, so I am not really interested in getting it ready until I already have that ball rolling.

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